Internal Enemy

Alone, my thoughts are too loud,
Yet completely silent
As no one hears them but me.
My mind torments me.
Why can’t you just be normal?
Why aren't you good enough?
I don’t want to be alone with myself,
My internal enemy.

I scream, cry, and wish to die.
I close my eyes and wail in pain.
No one understands
What I feel inside
Or why I can’t seem to try.

Slowly opening my eyes,
I rise and pretend I’m fine.
But my reflection reveals
The shattered smile on my face,
Intensifying the pain.
I just want to be okay.

Tears blur my eyes.
My heart’s in my throat.
I feel like I’m drowning,
Struggling to breathe.
My voice fades away,
Cracking as I try to speak.
I’m voiceless, suffocated by my own mind.

Swallowing the thoughts that hurt inside,
I bottle them up again and push them aside.
Feeling numb and drained, I collapse.
As I lay here, the cold floor burns me.
Yet I feel nothing.

My thoughts slowly pour through the tears,
Flowing down my cheeks like a river.
Is it just me who feels this way?
I’m alone, struggling with my internal enemy.