Fading Ties

A burden to close eyes,
An uneasy feeling inside heart,
Too afraid to shut down,
Not that I would meet the dark,
But that, I would loose my peace
What solace precisely?
Parents, The only comfort I consider,
Home, The only comfort I come around
Wondered what it might discern after they fade,
Difficult to comprehend actuality,
Crave to discard the mournful thoughts,
Henceforth, at no point it's phony,
Perhaps I'd cease to reside in this woeful world, If it ever to enfold.
Is it shorfull for what I've executed?
Am I to do more in an effort to secure them?
Is it a chance I might let them go?
My love for them is steady and true,
In the Hades of malevolence,
Their love blooms,
Their guiding hands ascend me to lightness.
This moment, I'll embrace eternally!