My pain of regret

This boredom kills
It feels like I'm trapped inside a cage
 With nothing to do no one to think of ,
My head aching with regret
Acting like scrooge to me was gonna make you more desperate to have my attention
Not knowing that it was like a bomb to blast us apart .
Although I never appreciate you being in my life , your abscenseis making me rethink , making the conclusion that you were not just a rainbow but a whole light in my world.
Everyday I regret pushing you away from me , thinking of a way to get you back , only to realise that the damage has been caused .
I hope , you are doing great where every you are and that cheerful bright side of you is still present and has not left you