Apology letter

I sit here wishing to turn back time, .y company of regrets.
  Boat of screwups far as the eye can see.
Mistakes made like a race you can't win.
    Apology letter read out loud hoping to receive your forgiveness and love.
    Childs love can come to a end,  Dry your tears little one wishing to be there.
      Apology letter is all I have to give, hoping to make my regrets quietly go away and make it okay apology to justify my walking away you stuck in the dark of why's and please come back.
 Drowning in alcohol and drugs to comfort my regrets left me standing all alone
Wondering why to write
   Apology letter.