Feelings2

Trying to start over is trying to let go of  everything you've been trying to fix and wasting away with trying to fix it is not going to help, sometimes it just makes things worse. I truly am going to go work on me because I'm tired of being alone and tired of making them happy when they are just making them feel like there the problem but in reality they are not and trying to show them is draining my energy and my time but for me to show you what things can be without some things hurts me because I personally cannot live that way it isn't me and I need a purpose and trying to make everyone feel like they can do better is my only purpose amd for people to shut me out makes me feel like I'm the bad person but I know I am not I know where I want to be and im okay with who I am and where I want to be and me changing is only going to make things better for me because I truly love myself but there are some thing I need to work on I am quiting this drinking amd my smoking problems I just need the help of me and others to show me I got this and me feeling like I have been feeling sick