As I am

Who am I?
Why am I here?
I don’t belong
I feel misplaced
I’ve been used and abused
Still can’t figure out if this is true
My mind constantly racing
I used to pity me
Was never at ease
Always depressed and isolated
Always felt baited
Didn’t love myself
Couldn’t embrace it
Environment was toxic
Constantly hating
Negative energy
Dreams was deflated
Always wanted to be everyone else
I couldn’t see, couldn’t truly desire
Who and what I wanted to be
Found love in a dark space
Was stuck in an illusion and trance
Gave all my love away, to be a punching bag treated like trash
Like my life itself was at its last
Almost lost the sight of the light
Until I was finally awaken
A blessing in disguise
I was lowkey shaken
Thankful to be here
And thank for for the lessons
I will never lose myself again
My life is truly ingrain won’t take it in vain