Dx- to Life in disguise

For growth to wait,
Now I see this,
all uncertainty aside
I’ve come to realize
Many others do relate
As cancer takes so much my energy
Time really is so dire
All the fear lingers another week-
Yet I see all I don’t want to miss
I rather seek to inspire

Creative fleets of ways to contemplate
Empowering is what I know & see
For now I seek self awareness mysteriously
To let me be alone… in self reflection
Maybe knowing internal resemblance
Of who I am & will be
Abstractly- how to be beyond cancer

Intuitively- what’s known
United we are through inner connections
To understand one self
Let go of what was to be
Yet to one another
We are all just temporary

Just here - so what is to say
Just to find courage (realistically)
Live beyond, rebelliously
With emphasis, be bold in today
Even in uncertainties
To find courage on purpose
Unapologetically
To feel my truth in identity

Invigorating past experiences of rigid
Despite some bad days, after treatment
To find peace & some serenity’
Even on days felt-
Surrendering

Mindful & meditation
To what is human glimmers
On such days may heaven know hell
Such, ways to only breathe
Exhale!
such days it’s just to simmer

Not to resist
What is  consciousness?
So we lay our next plans out
On sad days- to how we want
To be remembered
But - growth can’t wait
I see this & all is energy
To feel connected
To mindfully know
Intuition in this life tree
How time is invested

Angels show diagnostic's
in Disguise
As to what we truly we seek
Mindfully. Realizing
How to live our truest lives