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Nothing really matter at all, how to deal with the pain?

And I am losing control.

Life does not really matter at all, how to live with the pain?

And then I'm losing control.

The world is full of deceitfulness, do I ever trust again?

It's just out of control.

None of this shit means nothing to me, I only dull the pain and I just want to control.

It's feels that I don't belong, how do I belong?

But then I don't want to know.

It always feels like I'm all alone, how to not be alone? I'm always all alone.

It's like living in a lie, always the lying.

I hate all the lies.

You ask me if I'm alright, I said "I'm alright".

I'm not feeling alright.

Holding all of it in, just to let it all go?

I don't want you to cry.

Always losing the struggle; I'm holding onto life.

I am losing my life.

What's the purpose of life? Is there a purpose in life?

And what's my purpose in life?

Why was I given this life? Why did I live this life?

How to live in this life?

So empty at life, just take away my life.

Just end my life.