Trust and belief

Trust and belief this is what he say if i belief  will it be in my gain to be number one cames like a chain never second always first make me insane belief he says i am always second god is this my shame for believing in people to be first in the chain what will i gain? Pain and shame god planning things without you is insane.Trust and belief cames with pain but at the end it never  drived me insane
So trust and belief this is  what (He say)