Punishment of loving

There you were
Lovely and glowing
My heart skipped a beat
With passion flowing
You asked me my name
I shyly replied
You told me I was pretty
I said you lied
It was our first date
You wore an ugly sweater
But I thought to myself
You couldn't look better
Your birthday weekend we spent in a big city
You kissed my forehead
And said that you'd miss me
The months went on and I fell hard
But you wouldn't commit
And it hit me like bricks
And We played the game of who will break first
And it was me I was weak of course
I held on to you as long as I could
My claws digging in to my passion for you like dry wood.
It was brittle and broke everytime I squeezed hard.
And my fingers could not grasp you were like melting lard.
Pieces of you clung to my skin but just scraps
The bulk of you slippery it just kept slipping
You fell though my hand by no fault of my own.
You already told me you like life alone.
I cower in bed
I've been to the doctor
I have depression
Oh what a shocker
I still think of you in that ugly sweater
I wish that things would have gone better.