Can you believe

Can you believe.

can you believe I’m still alive
can you believe I made it maybe I can survive

my dreams are never dreams forever nightmares
living a life u don’t want to live, nothing compares
I just wanna scream I just wanna leave
i just wanna take a break I just wanna breathe
please help me god if your really out there
if this it my life forever, I don’t want it I don’t care

can you believe I’m still alive
can you believe I made it maybe I can survive.

so many scars maybe more inside then out
I just wanna scream I just wanna shout
I wanna be heard I wanna be thought about
I’ve tried to end my life I’ve tried to leave this earth
feels like nothing went right for me ever since my birth
my hearts forever hurting can feel it in my chest
feel so alone this the only way I feel I can express
why did I wanna grow up why did I wanna get older
so many battles I’ve had to face feel like a soldier.

can you believe im still alive
Can you believe I made it here maybe I can survive.

my parents now that’s another story
im still here but they didn’t help no one did it for me
I wanna fly out of this hole i feel stuck in
I wanna escape from this world full of sin
help me leave help me sleep forever
the girl writing this she wants to go maybe just let her.  

can you believe I’m still alive
can you believe I made it here maybe I can survive.

never felt pain like it it’s excruciating
the little girl I used to be I’m still grieving
I wanna go back to whenever I was last happy
everything went down hill things changed rapidly.
i dont believe in god but sometimes I just wanna pray
Pray to be gone pray that it ends and it all goes away
I’m sick or hearing those 4 words “it will be okay”
you wouldn’t last a day in my shoes
I am scarred I feel beaten I feel bruised
this world we live in may I be excused.

Can you believe I’m still alive
I made it here but can I really survive.