A Power Hungry Disease

I know the general outline of jealousy. Jealousy is not simple. It is unclear and not laid out for everyone to see. I know the general outline of jealousy. It is a disease that takes over your life. Jealousy is the small details that add up. Jealousy consumes you. Jealousy is hungry and evil. I know the general outline of jealousy. Jealousy holds hands with envy. Jealousy looks me in my eyes with an evil grin. Jealousy is a dangerous thing. I know the general outline of jealousy. I am jealous of the small little details. I am jealous of the smallest touches that you don’t seem to notice. I am jealous when envy pushes me back. I give up, and I walk alone.  I am jealous when those malicious actions cling to you. I notice as jealousy stares you in the eyes. The tension lingers in the air. Jealousy guilt trips and lies enchanting you. You fall for those actions every time. I sit and I watch as it happens. You say they are nothing, not to worry. I stay vigilant. I know that love should be stronger than jealousy and envy but I can’t help but wonder if that’s a lie. So I watch as jealousy eats at me. I know the general outline of jealousy. I hold hands with jealousy. I am tied at the hip with jealousy. I feed jealousy. Jealousy has made me fade. I go unseen. Jealousy pours tears down my face. Jealousy dangles malice actions in my face. Jealousy revolves around you. It hunts down my most valuable treasures and uses it against me. Jealousy is many things that go unseen, yet I see them. I am captivated. I know the general outline of jealousy. I know jealousy is insignificant. Yet it is my only thought. Day after day it consumes me until one day I will be gone. I will have lived my life with one thought.