Do You Believe I’m Crazy (Bussokusekika)

About this poem

This one is for the woman whom I believe I was yoked to in the eyes of God and not in the eyes of man…I am currently in freeze mode getting ready to take the flight response to get far away from where I’m at now…I don’t even really know IF you have been reading any of my posts…You can continue to believe everything you have learned from what mankind has taught you about religion and you may even continue to believe that Jesus is the true Messiah…The chosen one…You’d have to take my word for it…I don’t have any idea of where my signet seal might be…Or we can make arrangements to meet at Gaviota to see IF any spark of our feelings for one another that My Father gifted to us when we met still remains…I married my Narci because My Father gave me a small feeling of what I felt when I was with you…I held out hope for 30 years hoping that the woman I married could make me feel the tiniest amount of love that I felt when we were together…I don’t know what your thoughts are on living off grid…But I have 10 acres out in the wilderness of Van Horn, TX…I think I would probably be pretty lonely out there without the woman that My Father yoked me to but I’m sure IF it is his will for us to remain apart…Who am I to question his plan…I must let you know that I have strong worldly lusts…And many religions might view them as abominable sins…But I do need a woman who will treat me as IF I’m the man…And I would treat you as my other half…I just hope we have learned our lessons…Would you like to share a tent with me out in the middle of nowhere and see what kind of a life we can build together???I don’t have very much money but I believe that we can learn how to build a small home together…I believe a 8’ wall section framing runs around $50 or less…And who knows how long it might take to build whatever it is we believe we need to build…I was given a quote of $200,000 to build something out there…But we could always go the outhouse route…And one 1,000 gallon water tank…Who knows what we might need…I personally believe I wouldn’t need anything more than the feelings I felt when we are together…I know that I have felt nothing but emptiest since we grew apart…I no longer smoke…And I do believe I don’t need beer anymore…Or at least I hope you can assist me in overcoming my demons as I hope to help you overcome yours…What thinks ye ASL???And I don’t mean age sex location…