Focus

I hope writing this will help release the pain.
I wish it could take it all away, but I know it can’t. I wish I could speak to this hurt and it quickly evaporates. This crashing wave of emotions, is eroding my heart. I want to hate you but my heart won’t let me. I want to stop crying but your face won’t disappear. The endless feeling of your touch, your hugs and your  kiss covers me like a blanket; almost everything reminds me of you. Why couldn’t this end before the memories began. Why couldn’t this work? I fought so hard for us, but the battle was mine alone. The smiles I smiled were genuine. The love I have was pure and straight from the debts of my soul. You were my everything, my world. I still cling on to the thought that you once felt the same way. Are you somewhere crying, feeling the way I feel? Are you somewhere sitting crying the same tears? Are you lost for words, just like I am. I wish I can know the truth behind, I lost feelings for you. Was it something that truly annoyed you? Was it something that I could have adjusted for you? Was it something I should have adjusted for you? Were you even worth my change, my growth, my uniqueness? WERE YOU EVEN WORTH ME????? I dealt with your flaws and never judged you for them. I accepted all of you because I thought that’s what love was supposed do. SCREAMING!
F.U.C.K. ( FUTURE UNDER  CONSTRUCTION; KEEP it moving. This hurts so bad but I have to pull myself together and refocus. Focus on what’s right in front of me. And it’s not you!!!