I’ve Been….Part 5

After the countless beatings
Did you think? If you said sorry, and
gave me a hug I was going to be.
impressed or flattered.
 
I’ve been battered; I’ve been bruised.
I was an emotional wreck, but
That didn’t matter to youuuuuu
I’ve been your punching bag.
your outlet to release all that anger & stress
You had within. I’ve tried to defend myself.
But I had no wins. I’ve tried to leave you.
many time, but wind up back with you.
over and over again
I nearly lost my mind; I lost my peace to pain. I lost my joy to depression.
Things got harder & darker.
Shit just wasn’t the same.
Times I didn’t know if I was.
coming or going you were kicking my ass.
When I was mourning my daughter
I was suffering at times it felt like
I was being tortured.
You lacked.
empathy and sympathy
I’ve should have known from the beginning
The red flags were there, strong warnings
But I kept ignoring the fact that you were so
selfish and controlling