suddenly

why the life suddenly changed
I am the same but I have grown
things I do - I do differently
things I say - sound differently
but I’m still same just a little more sane
I choose to be more quiet as my thoughts chose to be louder
they used to be more me
but now it’s all the world in me
I blame them for my confusion
I blame myself for this conclusion..

I guess in the end I have become more insane than I thought
but at least I can see it
I don’t know if life will suddenly change again
I don’t really know if I can explain
but life is changing -
and I go along
I don’t really know if I’ll ever be happy
but at least I know what I want and where I wanna be
although it can only be dreams and thoughts which maybe are not even mine
I don’t know
but I do hope
life will suddenly change
and I will still be the same