I'm sorry Mom

I'm sorry, I was so weak
I wish, I could of been more meek
I love you, and it's not your fault
Life now, has come to a halt
I just wanted an easy way out
Not sure, how to come about.
Please don't blame yourself, but I know you will anyways
Not much to say, in these days
It's my fault, I choose to do this
Wishing for days of joy, and bliss
All you did, was try to help
Wish you knew, exactly how I felt
It's nothing you did
It's just all me, and my head
And now you are dead
In my heart, I wonder this
Just how much, was I oblivious
Of the pain and hurt, you hold inside
And the consumed illness, that you could not hide
The imperfections that the world had brought to you
The endless torture, you can't undo
Hoping you have peace, wherever you are
For you shine bright in the sky, like a beautiful star
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