Complicated

What can I say
What could I do
If I tried to show love any harder
My heart would turn permanently blue
It's complicated.
I don't know if I were ready for these kind of emotions
They run so very deep
The secret that keeps hurting me
Is the one he swears to god to keep
What can I say
It's complicated
My child needs a father, I, a companion as well
However circumstances keeps him bound
The truth to me
He may never tell
What can I say
It's complicated.