How Could you play me

I was blind wanting to see us live a long life together, wanting to see us jump the broom together, but all the weakness you speak of me made me thinking I was the one needing to get it together, you sold me hopeless dreams and promised me better days but you lied to me , you made me cry countless times, How could you play me , How could you say you love me but verbally abused me, I was too blind thinking you loved me wholeheartly but you didnt you loved the control you had over me, I wanted you to change but not for ME BUT FOR yourself,  you shold me I needed to love myself but long as I allowed you to play with me I became stuck in my mind battered and blind thinking about all the good memories stole my mind.