My Hearts search for LOVE

In this search to find my heart's content I have yet to find love without my heart's consent it beats and flutters for anyone who gives it attention but it gets fooled easily I forgot to mention I try to tell it that it needs to be easy but it wants to love again and be very pleasing I always tell it to be very careful not to believe everything it hears and sees and let it be stressful unfortunately it's always been guarded and held steadfast but it's only like that because of its past and I lost a long time love and it hurts very bad that it makes my soul unconscious and  very sad it can't survive another loss or grief I just know that if it loses again we going to have beef I'm not saying that I'm giving up but oh my Lord God I've had more than enough your love is abundant and I can never suffer but I'm going to make a promise that I'm going to make it tougher so that it doesn't break and it doesn't bend if you bring me this woman i can promise to love her to the end