I pray God answers yesterday

You see this heavy pain I carry
I hope to drop it
If I understand
I am sure I will be able to drop it

But fears hold high power in ignorance
You might laugh and have a good time
Concerning this
But something doesn’t add up

Why am I hated to such great extent
It seems illegal
I noticed this foul play
I talked to God

It yet seems to make no sense
It gets worse
I look around me
No one seems to have it as bad as I do

I closed my doors to the pain but they do keep rushing in
I checked stories of those beloved of God and they did seem to have very stressful lives as I do

Eventful one might add
They all talked to God as I do
But yet long and frequent their pain lasts
I still don’t understand

I do seek to understand
For. The pain I think I may not be able to bear
Perhaps I might survive with the voices of the old
Voice of victory surrounding the tears

But till the then, I pray perhaps I am given the strength to bear the worst as it comes
My heart heavy beating twice as fast on how possible. It is that I might survive

Tomorrow I am not sure
Today I know not
I hope and pray. I hope and pray
God answers my prayers yesterday I hope.