Not alone

Eyes are barely opening, exited to see him wake. In the kitchen cooking, knowing he’s happy after eating a meal. , only to be forgotten and he left in no time. No phone calls, no texts, to see if I’m stressed. I sit back and think what I did wrong. Nothing, zip, I guess I do belong alone. Watching the sun pass over in time. Checking the windows to see if he’s home. Not a day goes by without him in n my mind. Does he do that w me, no he think he waste time. I call and text to see if he’s ok. He hangs up angrily or doesn’t answer at all. My heart is pinched. And aches but I don’t say anything. The tears are in my eyes everyday. I don’t get a hug or kiss on the cheek. I’m told to go make dinner and not to speak. All day long I don’t talk to anyone, except my pet Jack who keeps me all warm and fuzzy never holding me back. What is love, I don’t remember. I thought it was the one we couldn’t live without, crossing our minds, being nice and sweet for one another. Hugs and kisses forever. For me it’s a nightmare everyday I walk on eggshells. Only to see my feet are trying to heel, from cuts and scrapes the eggs done before. Day after day and night after night. Im just scared to be kicked back. He doesnt say nice things, he doesn’t like me. I sit here and weep just to have one little kiss on my cheek. A flower when he returns from work, a hug for the times he’s been gone. Nothing I don’t deserve anything. No one, I’m nobody. Except a door mat. Wipe your feet on me. It’s ok. Waiting for the next place to place my door mat. Who shall it be.