I'm sorry

What am I sorry for? I'm sorry for disappointing you, for not being the ideal daughter that you wanted Sorry for doing all these things you against Sorry for not obeying you Sorry for what I might attempt. I hope you will find it in your heart to forgive me. Trust me, I tried, but it's hard when you're living in a toxic environment. It's hard when you have to pretend in order to satisfy others. Sorry for not telling you this earlier Mother am sorry for being a problematic child Guess I changed as the years went by, l don't know how many times I have cut myself Or drank pills just to numb the heartache that I carry every day How many times I have fought the edge of committing suicide. Forgive me. Hopefully you will understand why I did what I did. Hope you will finally understand that I was different and finally realize that you were trying to change me. I'm sorry;"mother"