Pheonix Heart

We stood abreast you and me.   The day before I came to die!  We looked down upon the Earth and the chaos and pain; my innocent love and arrogant ways!  You showed me everything in a blink of an eye!  

Showing me Lucifer and Michael trying to win your prize!
They fought so feverishly to earn your sword.  No brothers should fight I said!  Recalling the day maybe I could help?  That was all I can recall the next was echoing and a fall!

My first love always The Father and walk on his carpet of red.. St. Michael's Holy church and Holy Mother crowned my head!  I never wanted to leave you my heart of a Nun was to be... Oh but Holy Father did you have another path for me!!

The flesh is weak and so too I became giving into all snares, wicked and wilds of the game.  All commandments given I ensured I did break!  Gained many followers and applause from the crowd!  Winning I was so I thought pompous and proud!

We always talked through the whole ordeal.   Then became the day my heart would disappear!  

Many angels have been sent wearing masks and disguise always knowing I was your happy surprise.   Still to me unknown and much more still to this very day.   No matter my wrath you've never pushed me away.  Kept me at a distance your pain must have been deep!   To watch me stumble crumble and squeak!

Then came a night I hold very dear before your visitation when to me you reappeared!  You asked me to hold something deep inside me for you.  We had been talking again for a time again or two!  He said do you love me with your whole heart and soul!   I said Father your the only true love Ive known!  

All I can say is what came after that night was sheer horror torment and the fleeting of light!  The visions I was given and the torment I saw!  Holy Father exposed my life heart and soul!  The voices of all kinds the shadows of light!  The evil the victors the wrongs and the rights!   

Then came the visitation to my bedside you flew!  Do you trust me you said?  Of course Jesus I do!  You took me to hell and said do you see that light?  He said grab it quick and we shot back to the light!  I was awake in my bed and from the Devils snare we took what was the last of Hells  peace back by his might!  He told me Judas was his best friend.  Went to Hell for Jesus it was one of the many secrets I would befriend!  

He asked me to start writing and tell quite a story!  Of how all the wicked can someday find Glory!  I said Father why me look you know all Ive done!!  They think and have labled me a whore and insane!  I have no reputation left and my life you showed is a game.  Im live while the world is watching I cant lie!  They've seen my damaging mouth how can i deny!?

The  horror continued and more people went away!  I said but Jesus helped me please don't turn away!  No doctor no therapist lawyer or clout.   Wanted to listen to me and hear Jesus out!  I never claim power or own and magic!  I only listen to God knowing how tragic!  

He continued to show me the truth of my life!   To say the very least I felt like the knife!  

I voted on his command and filmed the election!  Jesus Christ on my ballet for him I will never make another objection!  The rest as you have known brought us COVID and FEAR.   The flock got meaner and now Evil I appeared.   Exorcist and Carried or IT and Queen of the Damned.   

Flesh is weak and still to this day I am amazed!  How I've made it thus far God is the only way!!  Cut open in an artery I should never have survived.  Hearing only and apology and bet ya never felt more alive!  Fact and it's true number 1 on the pain scale that day!  God still didnt throw me away.  

Then came a night, I woke kneeled at the Holy Gods feet!  Jesus to the right welcoming the meek.  I looked around in awe in a feeling I cannot explain no high could touch or adrenaline pheon wean.  I saw in the distance the purple hourglass flames! Thank God I am going home Heaven <3    Then I looked upon his face and more awe I knew!  Holy God nobody sees you!  He looked at me with red and yellow diamond eyes... Face of the aurora and fluctuating light.  He was dressed in red garbs and gold tassels i saw no feet!  His hand were two Suns of immense light and heat!  He gestured while i knelt to kiss the right Sun!  I was honored and happy and felt we were one.  I  went to stand in glory thinking my time had come.. To be with Our Father and his will with me was done!    Then he growled the loudest thunder clap I heard thru me to knees no chance to stand he looked at me and said "I COME"
I suddenly woke back in my bed here and in tears!  Pissed as all hell how can I be so near!  

I balanced this act in my head over and over again.  The visions got worse and more aways and no mends!

I could go on for hours about all I have seen and been shown!   Now it's been different and miracles have re'come!   

I am his!  This I know!  Many gifts have told me so!  Flesh yup that too I am weak!  

In closing as I've been writing with God in my heart!  He told me Jesus in the way to a really good start!  


God has asked me to tell you this here!  Something inside of me he holds quite dear!  Only he can take it off and for that I will hold a mystery even to me someday to unfold!