always down?

I am bored by cyclin my life...
why? this the question to me face
Mainly reasoned case is that
I became monopoly is fact

Days went by with the dark
Most nights sleeps were lack
Why eyes became drospyed
Then how hearts riped for beat good

Answers were hided in my heart fulled
But when any ask this for what
I can't answer which I choosed
This is my vow is only I knowed

Mustly I want to wait....
Have this lines a cleared history
I promisly saying that ...
This is which I only know still now

And also I know one thing.
In god's earth there haven't
Anybody for see my tears.
Sorry! about my God