June 23/23

you always loved the idea of moving away to the city
and you’re too fucking pretty to stay in your hometown  
you were mine until this summer now I’ll wait for you until the weather gets colder because you and Northwestern Europe have always had this special affair
you’re shining in this world like I always knew you would
I promised you that I understood
but I still hate Europe
because it gets all of your love
much more than I ever could’ve
I couldn’t own your heart
because it was always somewhere buried in those uptown streets
and that “studio apartment with lots of new books” dream
we can never fit together the way you fit in over there
I can still hate Europe because that is where I’m going to lose you
and I hate that I’ll always want you but one day you’re going to be somewhere in that studio apartment with brand new books and someone else to share it with