Beautiful Chaos

I've given you the best of me, created your finest days
But for every sweets I've gained, I've tasted every pain
Each time the saddest thoughts run into me, I cannot think of other ways that hold the best of me that stays
At one point, I thought it is destined that my world is covered with an everyday sunrise rain

I am scared to lose you, that's why I'm starting to give you all
Even if there are times that I cannot breathe with a follow through
Even if there are times that my anxiety attacks me while waiting for you in your school's hall
I am scared to drift away, that's why I'm trying my best to be true

Even if it spoils a surprise
Or give my friend's sanity a bad approach
You're still the first thing that I can think every time I rise
Even if I know that I only got you by means of poach