Hello world

My name is Andrea…
Lazy…
Lier…
Crazy…
Disappointment…
The one who always seems to hurt everyone around them…

Hello world…
I am an addict…
Drugs…
Self obsession…
Lier…
And Always kicking myself down to make the next person feel better…

Hello world…
I am always…
Depressed…
Emotionally destroyed…
Mentally tired…
Crying no matter if it’s a good or bad situation…

Hello world…
Todays date is March 20th 2023…
And I am alway putting myself on a pedestal,
as if the world doesn’t do this enough to me..
I fight everyday as if I am at war with myself…
Thinking about the quick way out would be a fast solution…
But not a good one…

Hello world…
Today I am emotionally destroyed cause of the guilt and shame I have felt from past trauma…
Allowing people to hurt me is one of my worst qualities…
Looking at myself in the mirror, thinking about how I let this girl get so destroyed…
But I keep moving forward as if nothing ever happened…

Hello world…
Today I am hiding in my bed cause the bipolar and depression is running miles in my head..
My addiction telling me I can’t move forward with out a fix..
I’m so numb right now I can’t even move out this bed…
But I’m on meds and the drs tell me I am fine…
Just to take them as prescribed…
Don’t they realize I’m an addict…
I told them before but I don’t think they heard me…
I might just tell them once more…

Hello world…
Im Andrea…
Im 31, unemployed with 2 children who’s living off the government right now…
I’ve been married and divorced twice…
Multiple failed relationships…
health issues…
Mental issues…
And feel physically destroyed…
I have people who say they love me but, i don’t even know what love is anymore…
Being hurt repeatedly does that…
Being lied to does that…
Going through trauma does that…
But being able to stand up and push forward is what shows people your strong enough to get through it..