Motivational synopsis

My soul diminishes
As the curtain closes
Tired of this foolishness.
I wanna get rich
And give my kids a life
I never could've imagined
In my darkest hour
I bow down and pray to a higher power
Something has to make me change
Somehow I have achieved something more
My dreams are a possiblity if I could only
Put forth that same energy
I used to have when I had a family
But my mind is plagued with rage and pain
I am not evil that's just how it seems
I'm actually a dimming light
That no one else can see
I need to reach a new level of clarity
Or some kind of epiphany
That makes me see clearly
exactly who I used to be
and who I need to become
I will always be someone's son
Someone's father someone's unk
Somebody's brother
I will always protect them
 even from each other
All I really wanted is to be someone's lover
This tatoo ring has stories and memories
and says to me
i once was in love with somebody
She will always mean something to me
And will always be my queen
Even if we not together forever in a dream
As long as she is happy it's okay with me
I have time now to reach for the stars
But fell so hard and felt so dark
When my life was ripped apart
I started to use again
It became a part of me
I thought I actually needed it
Everything I love was taken away from me
So now I have a fresh start I am free
But idk where to lay my feet
Like a baby I am wondering aimlessly
It is time to be everything
I seen in my dreams
And stop overthinking
and under compensating
...
i need to do this for me