The sun set

I'm writing our last chapter
And I don't know how it ends
But the one thing I do know
Is that lovers don't end up as friends
I tie my hair with a pen tucked behind my head
Looking at your last message
I throw away the entire book across my bed

You know I'm good at writing
I could say exactly what I mean
but I just stare at it for months
What a romance novel seen
I don't know where we go from here
You know I said it as a joke
Where are they now ? Not speaking.
That was one of the last time we ever spoke

I look back to my notes
What exactly happened there ,
I could end the story here
But would you think that that's unfair
I close my eyes
Imagine myself in your brain
Because what the hell are you thinking
Driving me so incredibly insane

I wanna give it a happy ending
Because I want that for me
But I want someone to know on the first date
Not change their mind after 3
Someone that talks to my family
And then bring me home
Not someone that says
"I want to be together " then leaves me alone

I haven't been able to write another character since
You made our romance into a mystery
And my favourite subject was always science
But now here wasting time on our history
I would rewrite the beginning,
Remove some of my hope
Delete you all together
That would be one way to cope

Make our romance into a tragedy
What would Romeo and Juliet say ?
I was holding out for our future
But for you it's just another day
At least that's what it seems
Why one of us is a writer
So the other chooses flight
So why do I stay the fighter
I don't wanna be a fighter
I don't want to be part of some game

I want the after meeting you
Nobody could have ever made me feel the same
I don't want create us
Put to words  what we do
Why do I have to be the one to write
When someone tells me "I love you"
 
There's magic in madness
All these things I have made
Why do I have to be courage
When somebody else gets to be afraid
So what will it be then
These choices you make
Because I'm not someone who
For granted you take