If Only...

Barbie dolls and hot pink walls,
Band-Aids on scraped knees and looking for shapes in the clouds,
How quickly it changed
Oh, if only I could turn back time…

Gangly limbs, braces, and acne,
My reflection stares back at me
Flaws, flaws, and more flaws
If only I could turn back time…

On a cloud of euphoria, one moment,
The next all I feel is red-hot rage
A hurricane of emotions,
taking over my senses and not making any sense
If only I could turn back time…

A desperate need to fit in, to be accepted
Doubt every self-made decision
Every taunt, every sneer affects a plundering self-esteem
If only I could turn back time…

The feelings threaten to drown me,
But I remember
It’s the journey, not the sprint

And that day that’s guaranteed to come,
When I’m old and gray
Staring up at the stars
Reminiscing these times…and wondering
If only I could turn back time