Flooded, Dumb, Stuck, & Numb

I’m stuck, numb
      no thoughts come along
absently interested in and
sickened by the emptiness
     Frustrated Sedated Depressed
with no releases left, distractions fracture the past
   I sit next to the mess
Misdirected
    slipping into synaptic gaps
that disconnect my cognitive map

I’m flooded, dumb
  with a bloodied tongue
slowly awakened, mistaken
         by sensations of self-induced
                 secluded confusion
     Misplaced information blackens the sun

I’m flooded, dumb, stuck, & numb