Feels like giving up

God I need help
Cuz I cant bear how much I lost myself
I need to calm this soul
Or else it would lose the last ounce of control
I need to keep up for a while
But I cannot console my heart to smile

Schools and home both seem the same
The  profound places have lost their name
The amount of beauty these destination once carried
Sadly with passage of time, got deep down buried

I cannot tell myself that it ll be alright
Where I clearly have been losing my fight
It hurts to be happy
When everything in life has become shabby
The aching has become consistent
And every part of me is distant

Nothing seems as a pretty home
In the  midst I have been left alone
Now these orbs  are tired of crying
And with every single passing second, I am dying
The shattered pieces are left everywhere
Jesus help me get myself, I am holding onto prayer

I do not have an answer to these problems
And I don’t wanna drain the people in bedlam
I am full of worries, a broken tuile
Now the sound of living feels cruel

Days are moving away
With this soul ripping each day
I am not okay anymore
I need a hold, I need a touch I need a savior
Who simply would not be tired of my behavior

This life is now empty
It isn’t the same, it has lost itself
In this worldly game
I wouldn’t wanna complain
but the beautiful things now sound lame

I am over myself
I feel heavy and numb
I am choked up
And I am lifeless

My body Is drained
My heart is exhausted
My soul Is tired
My brain is drowned
And I feel like giving up….
                                                   Rajvi baniwal