Don’t over it get you drowned

I’m a happy person
But the head I’m in is not
And it’s such complete immersion
That too often I get lost.

I’ve got hopes and desires
And ideals in my soul
But that which I aspire
To attain is all a blur.

Who am I? I wish I knew…
The girl who wants to try,
Or the girl who feels so blue,
And hopes that soon she’ll die.

Overwhelmed by my emotions
I try to find a way
To escape this stormy ocean
And reach a sunny day.

But there’s no sense of clarity
Inside my whirling thoughts.
This world feels like insanity
In which we’re somehow caught.

We look at life through tinted eyes
Colored by circumstance
Hued with emotional lows or highs
And tinged by happenstance.

An uncut diamond in the ground
Can’t reflect an unseen light
And no one hears the smothered sound
Of a star fall in the night.

What’s hard to see, or hear or know
Is all that which is veiled.
But also outside things can’t show
To eyes or ears assailed.

It doesn’t seem we’re really able
When all things change and shift
To ever become truly stable
For there’s always things we’ll miss.

What’s our goal, true happiness?
It’s something not inside..
We tell ourselves it must exist
It just feels so hard to find.

Just when you think you’ve found your way
It all comes crashing down
You’re once more caught in the powerful sway
Of this ocean in which you drown.

Theres one thing we can not escape
Unless maybe we’re dead-
Though we can claw and bite and scrape
We’re stuck in our own head.