If I could

If I could
That's only a word that states I'm not actually able to be doing it , ' So why if '?
But I'd like to say if as a similar way to introduct my conduct of what I could have done
If words be my goal I'd be able to enjoy it everyday without questioning is it the right choice.
if I could express myself in this way everyday I wouldn't have to feel entitled by anyone's advice or opinions except I'll  have to choose.
If I had options I'd like to say no and yes to certain things which are always troubles me in life
If I could have answers to questions I'd surely be sure to know what is right and wrong from a guidance tool for life

If I could write a book and not be judged by it that would mean that I have no insecurities to follow me around and success would not mean qualifications.
How much could a person ask to get enough
Will it be fair and square,

No this is just a myth I'm not able to turn my thoughts in reality can I ?