Thinking of you

I literally spend every single second thinking of you. I have a million things  happening and my thoughts still go to you. My whole world crashing down on me like giant rocks. And thinking of you makes smile. I'm in a dark place and when Im thinking of you. I see there's light at the end of the tunnel and I'm hopeful. I been holding back tears but I want to lay in your arms when I cry. Thinking of you make me feel safe and less insecure and I can breathe. Because air is fresher around you. I wanta live in your skin and die in there. Thinking of you put butterflies where the knot normally lives and I can eat. I can sleep. Under you for hours and hours.  Cause I could do this for hours  days. I love you even on your bad days. And when I think of you I think of sunshines in Bali it's a virtual paradise. Not that hole I'm dying in. I feel myself being buried alive. But somehow thinking of you I can hold the air in. Soul hurting never searching cause I found my soulmate. I can't see faraway but thinking of you I'm not blindly in love. Subconscious picking at my psyche but when I'm  thinking of you the doubts fade. Life crashing against my foundation washing away my flesh and it hurt so bad it burns but thinking of you it's only light rain frome a hurricane. I been fading in the background getting lost in all the noise but thinking of you I can hear music in the sounds. Thinking of you and I can't think of anything else.