Mama

He lifted his hand
gave her a slap
as he pounced on her
giving the worst
And I watched
 
He shouted at her
calling her all sorts of names
in public and alone
no respect towards her
and I watched

He came home late
it kept happening
she had a talk with him
that ended up the confession
he was cheating and won't stop.

no sweet words nor
the love and affection
all these kept repeating
over and over again
And I watched

And she kept mute
crying inside and out
silently, not trying to react
but to be the perfect submissive wife
it is okay for him to do that
he is the man.
And I watched.

So little I was,
couldn't understand none
but learn to follow
it is right
what dad did to beat , insult and cheat on her.
Mama showed me
is okay to keep all in

Women are supposed to
 just listen not talk
after all, that's what Mom did
stayed with him after all this years
and I watched

As I grew , I became her
I listen but never question
as my choices was never mine
but was on others

Mama never  showed and told me
it was wrong to be silence
is wrong not to speak for yourself
it is wrong to be abused
and not say a thing.

Mama never said
I had the power to be myself and become whom i want.
that I deserve love and affection
I just watched and learned
and I became her

And this is also me
telling my daughter to watch
too and learn .
And it continues...