Life

I have so much to tell about life
But digging my inner thoughts
Resumes the play of my lives history
Which leaves my soul with a sad play
My heart beating loud drums like is pointed with a sharp spear

This gotta be a huge calamity hosted in my inner self
Cause surely it does damage me
Hoping for peace in faith but having fate
Afraid to frail unnoticed
Because I'm covered with a youthful flower
But internally an aging old women carrying
Alot of baggage

Damn!
The hunger for help is really
Starving me and I'm enticed to be fed
And would be enlightened by whoever
Feeds my muzzy self

Everyone so haste to help but setting me
In the dark, desolate and destructed
Dying from the portion I've produced and poisoned
Cause my eyes gazed in sympathy of people
My heart haunted by history

Leaving me brutalized with bruises tattooed
In my soul
Dwelling in the past cuddling with evil
Turned me into the refugee with so many
War battles which I cant settle in

But yet im Inviting myself in the feast of
Forgiveness
Feeding my soul with healing
And let evil slay with wicked
Willing to be heart  attack by the spear
Of happiness
Cause I'm that purpose life needs and I want to live.