Healing Mother

I love my child,I love being a mother.
I do not love being a single mother, I do not love being separated from my child’s father.
Had I been more careful before starting a family with someone that did not feel the same, but I was blinded by the feeling of love only reciprocated on my end.
 I hate the idea of starting over with someone new.
I hate the idea of introducing a man to my child that is not their father with hopes that hey maybe this one will stay.
Why is my child’s father trying to wedge his way back into what was broken of me when I have finally collected all my pieces?
They say, “the right man will come around and be the man you deserve”.
Do you know how heartbreaking the process is until that “right man” comes along?
Thinking you found the one, then there’s a shift.
A shift because they cannot handle the hours of no reply.
The frequent date cancellation, days of not seeing each other, the lack of availability in between their random open windows of time because not only are you a single mother,
You are a working mother.
You are a student mother.
You are a sister mother.
You are a mother mother.
I love my child, I love being a mother.
I do not love being a single mother, I do not love being separated from my child’s father.