THE LONG MORROW

why o why did this happen to me. first I barley was there but i did get there. Was it mental or physical it was both. I just wondered could I exist. MAYBE A LITTLE longer  but i have no idea. How I  could  . Or how I could last pain and sorrow that is what my life is filled with. could it get better.  not in my life time.  not for me. I am domed to suffer  why me no one cares . if they did they are long gone is there any answer for me I don,t see it at all I never did maybe that is the problem for me suffer now and suffer I shall.  . I thought it was getting better after 4 decades of night and day but out of no where i saw him  the grim Reaper   I was so scared i couldn,t move was it true maybe if i do not think about it will not be. then when i was cleaning a last I got the call then the sun went down on all my hopes and dreams I