Needed

I know now.
I know now that you are a terrible person with terrible intentions.
This took me time to realise as my eyes were blinded.
Blinded by the light of the universe, the light and Beauty of my peaches and cream universe, so blinded that I did not realise how much you had forsaken me.
Trust is so large and heavy, that only a miniscule amount is required, required to aid a bleeding wound, required to blindsomeone with wrongly prescribed specs.
And I gave you a trust so big it filled both hands, and you took it and let the aqueous solution skim through the cracks of your fingers, luckily for me, I placed a bucket underneath.
as the trust fell, I conserved it for myself, and then began to grow.
I grew as the rusted crackling leaves of self doubt fell, rapidly onto the floor.
I grew as the sickly weak stem thickened, hardened and grew into its self.