Nothing; perfect

Tear;
Torn by the fear that still leaves me here,
Hiding in colours until i disappear!
Crying... to empty ear,
Screaming to absolute silence,
As all the voices make it clear!

I am nobody,
Possibly don't exist...
Wish i could,
Want to, try to, intend to,
Be anything fucking good!
But i am again; NOTHINGNESS!

Pain;
Kept quietly insane behind old doors of blame,
Assumptions from the distance unexplained!
Begging... to feel the shame,
Collapsing into someone's silence,
As repetition becomes again.

I am nobody,
Could i exist...
Wish i would,
Want to, try to, intend to,
Perhaps be something good!
But once again; NOTHINGNESS!

Skin;
Rips so quick in the razor dance i begin,
Kneeling in puddle with wasted seraphim!
Crushing... every page with my ink,
Bleeding quietly until there's silence,
The darkness of sharp tongue dims.

I am nobody,
Not required to exist...
Wish nothing good,
Want to, try to, intend to,
Think i wouldn't if i could!
But who cares; NOTHINGNESS!

In NOTHING i feel,
In NOTHING i am almost strong,
In NOTHING i am light,
NOTHINGNESS is somehow perfect and right now... makes the perfect goodbye!