Is this real

Inside these walls i find myself lost looking for some thing that i once had that is no longer any were to be found.The feelings i feel do i really feel them,Are they even real.I cut myself i see the blood i feel the burn i feel  it as each drop runs down my arm and falls to the floor.I touch the blood to see if it feels real..this reasures me that i can still feel.I look into the mirror at myself to see what i feel my eyes so dark theres no color at all, so dark i get lost looking them I look deeper inside to see what i feel.Only to realize i dont  want to see,to see what i have become.