Dear Irreplaceable 1

DEAR  IRREPLACEABLEFEELING LIKE HALF AWAKE HALF ASLEEP ,AS I FELT HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE THE ONE I LOVE FEELS CONFUSED ,DROWNING IN SORROW AND NO LONGER SURE ABOUT CONTINUING THE JORNEY.I JUST ASKING MYSELF HOW AND WHY,BECAUSE I WAS FEELING SURE ABOUT EVERYTHING.I WISH  I KNEW HOW TO REPLACE WHAT I STRONGLY FEEL IS IRREPLACEABLE, I DON’T KNOW, ONLY GOD  KNOWS BETTER.HOW I WISH ,BUT WISHES ARE NOT ALWAYS  HORSESTHEY ARENT HORSES TO TAKE US TO DESTINATIONS WE DESIRE.WHAT I DESIRED IS NOW COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FROM WHAT I FINALLY GOT BUT SOMETIMES THAT’S THE WAY LIFE GOES WE DON’T ALWAYS GET WHAT WE DESIRE.THE IRREPLACEABLE PLACE THAT’S LEFT IN MY HEART WHO AND WHAT CAN REPLACE IT I WONDER.THE PAIN I FEEL TOO DEEP BEYOND WORDS ,ONLY THE WORD OF COMFORT FROM THE MOUTH OF THE LORD GOD CAN BANDAGE. I BELIEVE HE WILL.I ASK MYSELF WAS IT A BEAUTIFUL SWEET DREAM WHICH JUST LASTED A MOMENT AND WOKE  UP FEELING OVERWHELMED BY THE BEAUTY OF THE DREAM.DESTINY HAS ITS WAYS WHICH I DON’T HAVE POWER TO CHANGE.I UNDERSTAND NEITHER YOU CAN CHANGE IT AS WELL.WELL ,GOODBYE I MUST BE HONEST I CANT SAY ,MAYBE SAYING UNTIL WILL MAKE ME FEEL BETTER.UNTIL DESTINY PUTS US WHERE GOD DESIRES US TO BE. HE KNOWS MORE THAN WE DO.JUST WANT YOU KNOW ,YOU ARE THE BEST, I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST YOU.NO NEED TO FORCE YOSELF TO STAY IN WHEN YU FEEL YU ARE GETTING SUFFOCATEDYOU ARENT THE ONE WHO DECIDES ON DESTINY GOD DOES AND WE ARE ALL JUST ACTORS.IF DESTINY WILL BRING US BACK TOGETHER AGAIN IT WILL BE JOY UNSPEAQKBLE FOR ME ,IF IT DOESN’T WELL GOD KNOWS HOW HE WILL HELP ME FACE ITALL THE BEST IS I WISH FOR YOUAS I ONCE SAID GOOBYE I CANT SAY