Chaotic Passenger

The Chaotic passenger is by my side
Whispering his desires as they rise
I look him squarely in his eyes
Where a familiar glare resides
I dismiss most of his concerns
Yet his insistent chatter returns
That reminds me of days long past
Encouraging me to think & act fast
He obsesses over all of the things I’ve done
The good the bad and the forgotten ones
He pretends about things that aren’t real
It takes all of my will to stay even keel
When I entertain his delusional game
I’m quickly thrown and reminded he’s insane
He dreams about a future where he is king
In his next breath he fears being beaten in a ring
He teeters between grandeur and despair
Often leaves me wondering with nothing to compare
He yells out more commands to my dismay
All of the things that need tending to today
Lists and lists of activities to come
Worried about how they will ever be done
I can’t take much more of this
I look over and he still persists
I finally pull over and ask him to get out
That's when I realize I’m alone on my couch