MY PAIN

He came beaming with smiles
Making me go wild
Deep down I wondered
Even pondered
As to why he of all people
Would want to talk to me

Butterflies in my belly
Running here and there, very
Tiring
He kisses me on the lips
I go crazy finding where to sit


Later on, I find out it was a dare
Tears burst out of fear
Knowing the whole school would laugh
At my stupidity, that's fax


Parents making matters worse
Making me do things with force
Making me feel like I'm a black sheep
I can't get any sleep
I'm not a cultist hoe hard is that
To believe


This feeling is weird
That I would never tell
Anyone about my fear
Led by foolishness to fall in love
The second time
I trust again with my whole heart


Knowing that no one is there
To clean my tears
When I'm in fear
That I'll kill myself
I'm strong in mind
But weak at heart


I'd do a lot of things for people
But no one would for me
Never in my entire life
Did I think I would feel so worthless
I haven't really been through much
But I think teenage hood
Is enough trauma