In search of myself

Excuse me, hello
Hope you're doing good
I just want some help
If you could
It's just that I'm in search of something,
I just dropped it somewhere I think.
I am searching for it from past 2 years,
But I still can't find it anywhere.
It could be as small as a particle,
I'm not sure if I can call it an article.
It could be as big as a whale,
And maybe by now a little bit pale.
I'm not even sure if I really lost it,
Or its just hidden with me within.
In my pov it's not lost,
It's just the people around me who gave me a thought,
That I lost my real self a long time ago,
And I should search for it
Which I'm unable to bro
If anyone could help me find ME,
I'll be really grateful.
You might reunite a lost crying mess,
With its heart and soul...