FEAR OF HATRID

Deep inside screams the darkness,
It feeds of the light,
Slowly emerging on the surface,
The desire to be belonged
Resides , turning me selfish
But what do I do ?
When all i want to be is “ everybody’s go to”
Yes!  i crave attention,
But back off when its showered,
Because it's no one’s intention
They make me feel better
But i know deep inside
I don't deserve their tender
 
I see the mirror
I see the reflection
I want to be known
I want to be heard
but , the darkness magnifies my fear
A lot of criticism
A lot of backlash
Did Not help the seed grow
Instead it allowed it be buried deep inside even low
The more i try , i more i see
A part of myself i have never been

The feel of hatred
The feel of knowing no one cares
Adds a thin layer to my eye sight
“I dont believe you!
Screams my mind
I have been faking it
With hopes themselves breaking apart
My little soul, i hear you!
I hate who I see too!