Depression and Anxiety

Anxiety

Nail biting, sweaty hands, cold feet, shaking,
 you are here again, roaring and biting me, pulling me down,
 draining my excitement and changing my smile into a frown,
You won again you little piece of shit, here there’s your crown

Leave me alone, ok, don’t bother me or I’ll drown,
Drown? How dare you even ask me that, yes you always pull me down,
drowning me in my own tears,
You are here because you know my weaknesses and fears,
The pain you caused in me makes me want to disappear,
It feels like I got hit by a spear,
 straight into my heart, damaging my soul

Damn you are like a wrecking ball tearing down my goals
Why do I always give you the control of my life,
Making me feel like I’m always at the bottom of the totem pole,
You shouldn’t have but you always control my life,
Changing the sunshine in me into darkness, darker than black hole,

Speaking of black hole, your ugly ass is like a blackhole,
It’s inescapable, making me unstable, turning comfortable to uncomfortable,
 thinking I can’t do anything instead of what I am capable,

But enough is enough I will stand against you,
 it's going to be like David and Goliath,
You are big I am small, but I got my weapons with me,
I go to therapist now bitch, they are letting me free,
Free from your oppression, I now control this person in me,
Going to the gym and writing poems, convincing I got that dawg in me,
I finally opened my eyes, and I saw the reality
That we cannot avoid the anguishness, but accept that it’s part of our odyssey.