Being used

I want to have no feelings and be selfish.
My empty chest longs for the warmth of honesty
To feel the rhythmic life.
All the butterflies have withered to dust,
And the knots have vanished.
Broken pieces echo off my rib cage.
It will take more than I'm sorry this time.
Silly me for believing that you won't do this,
A lone daisy in your vast garden of betrayal.
I only wanted you to stay with me.
Instead you ripped my roots from the earth,
Pulling my petals, indecisive about my friendship.
While ignoring my cries of agony.
You disemboweled me and I'm left bare.
I crave you in the worst ways.
To be rescued from my sadness,
Feel my battered insides and remember who loved you in your loneliness.
Trace where the heart you stole once played a cadence
Every time you were near.
This godforsaken skeleton shivers under your caress.
The only thing I ever wanted was to be loved.
Now I'm alone without our friendship.
Incapable of thoughts,
My mind is gone and I'm spinning.
I've become a robot with a plastic exterior,
A decoy of what used to be, before you shattered my heart,
A counterfeit smile plastered on my pale face.